The Eternal Search for Wholeness, Unity

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The Eternal and restless search for wholeness and unity in loving relationships, is in truth the greatest search for meaning and purpose in our lives.  It is the search for something greater than the sum total of ourselves, which brings us into wholeness again.

One of the greatest reasons why human loving relationships fail, and often turn into war zones, is that we want the Other to fill the deep void inside of ourselves up, so that we can finally be WHOLE.

We sometimes can glimpse that eternal wholeness in a moment of profound, loving, deep union with our Divine Other, in those moments of ecstasy, bliss, euphoria.  But that stage is short-lived, as everyday life encroaches upon us, and the little jackals, those little things, which irritate, which jar, then grow into monsters, which tend to sow division, fights, bickering.

Interestingly, it is that UNWHOLENESS in the partner, which most reflects our inner un-wholeness, brokenness, separation, for in truth the partner is reflecting all unloved, unacknowledged parts of ourselves, back to us.

So many people flit from one partner to another, one love to another, like adrenalin junkies.  As soon as the infatuation wears off (which was mistaken as the THE LOVE, THE ONE AND ONLY), and reality sets in, the flaws of the partner become too much.  Whereas once one loved those flaws and found them interesting, or even cute, or lovable, now become a source of immense irritation. The seeming flaws remind us of our own brokenness, our own un-wholeness, of the void, deep inside of us, which is so longing for unity, oneness, and then being whole again.

Interestingly the more we seek wholeness, and unity OUTSIDE of ourselves, the more we will find our own void, our own brokenness reflected everywhere.

I was reminded of this, when I was going through a stage where I was critical of my Divine Other, and only saw what I wanted to see.  More than this, I had my own ideas, fantasies and whatever about the how, when, where.

It took me one day, of intensely missing him, of feeling that if I did not go deep inside myself, and felt into my WHOLENESS and LOVED MYSELF INTO THAT WHOLENESS again, I would not be able to love him into his wholeness.  I decided there and then, that I would seek wholeness within and without myself, wholeness within him and wholeness in our relationship.  I also decided that I would live in the here and now, and allow the past to dissolved.  All of it.  All the past lives, and parallel lives and whatever else.

I asked God and Goddess to show me his soul, in its highest truth, and innocence, that soul which was created as my own soul, as in the beginning, when we were first born as souls.

When I finally saw this, something deep within me shifted.  I started sobbing.  Not tears of woe, or sadness, but rather tears of awe and wonder.  I could not find words.  I could not find expression for what I was witnessing at SOUL level.  I just saw the PERFECTION of God/Goddess’s creation, and realized, nothing was ever missing, nor wrong.  For God/Goddess does not create imperfections.  All was ONE unity, one symphony of perfection embodied in soul and creation.

My heart and soul opened up, and my body, mind, spirit, soul.  My emotional body just released something immense.

I was then shown was true love was all about.  How the Divine Love, and Divine Sexuality, could flow through the souls, with joy, delight, exultation, creation, and ultimate wonder of unity, in the highest and most profound sense, when there was NO-thing to distort, nothing to separate, nothing to break the illusion of ONENESS.  It was a light-heart-ted-ness, a profound awesome gift of Love, which had no boundaries, no bounds, was infinite and was always present.

What that taught me, was that the negative ego distorts.  The illusions we have of what partnerships should be like – and most of this is false programming which has come over many generations.  Generations who often enforced marriages for dowry reasons, for political and land issues, even for tribal peace.  Generations, where the un-wholeness of union, was carried over generation by generation, and therefore then more un-wholeness, rather than wholeness and unity.

To me this time is all about finding unity.  Unity WITHIN oneself, the marriage between the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine WITHIN.  Yes, we all have the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine within ourselves.  Sometimes even they are at war with themselves, like we often want to cut out the shadow, and only see and acknowledge the light within us.  The more we ignore the shadow, the more it will manifest into form, and mostly in the most intimate of relationship, where that shadow often bursts out in words one slings to each other, or uses like weapons of war.  Words can leave scards which are the hardest to heal, mainly because they act like daggers in our emotional bodies, and need to be removed.

When the inner soul self finally seeks the union within itself, it will find the union outside of itself, for Divine Law AS WITHIN, SO WITHOUT, is valid cosmically.  More, than this, to finally allow the deepest expressions of love, to manifest in whatever form this may take, is a huge step towards empowerment at relationship level.  If one is totally dedicated to express love, in its purest forms, then love will express itself, in exuberant ways, without wanting pay-off, or anything else in return, but love, itself.

It is when one finally steps past the negative ego, and into the higher soul self, that the expectations are gone, the demands, the give-me symdrome, and then one finally allows love to sprout forth unencumbered.

Love has no conditions.

Love has no boundaries.

Love has no demands.

Love does not perform nor does it seek to measure performance.

Love does not compete, for in truth, there is no competition.

Love loves the seeming flaws, and sees only the perfection of soul lessons in love to be mastered.

Love has no: “If you do that, I will…..”

Love has no “I want this and that, and I want you to…..”

Love has no “You did this and that and I can give the second, the minute, the date when this and that happened…..”:

Love has no slings for slinging and slanging matches…..

Love does not keep score.

Love does not exchange for money, status, physical control, and whatever else.

Love is not bound by legal contracts, nor by divorce laws, no by what is owed nor owned.

Love loves.

Love Blesses the Divine Other.

Love is grateful.  Love is grateful for small and little things, for the small and big gestures, tokens, expressions of love, and love in all its myriad of forms and disguises.  Love is grateful for the blessings of love, and blesses love, and through the blessings, love multiplies.

When we finally step into full maturity as souls, as will work at finding unity within ourselves, before we seek union anywhere else.  It is a process.  It means having the guts to face the woundedness, the un-wholeness within, and therefore to seek that profound unity with the Divine, before this can manifest in true union with one’s Beloved.

Love asks the Beloved for an anointment of Blessings and Love, and then to understand, that each union, each coming together, has its own blessings, and its own love-in-expression-feeling-and-Being.

Sometimes one moves heaven and earth, and it is earth-shaking.

Sometimes it is pure tenderness and that deep soul connection that goes beyond words.

Sometimes it is pure comfort of feeling each other, being there for each other, in so many ways.

Sometimes it is delightful, playful, joyful and sometimes steeped in tears.

Sometimes one can span dimensions, and one can literally melt into the Infinite wonder of All-that-is.

Sometimes it is fiery and charged.

Sometimes it is a gently lapping brook, tranquil, peaceful and steeped and flowing with love.

Embrace Love, in all its forms and expressions.

Allow.

Just allow.

Love.

And one day, you will find that love has gently been set alight in your heart, soul, and Being, and has found a nesting place there, and indeed, that nesting place, has always been there with the Divine Other, for it is a deep homecoming, and UNION, and deep feeling of safety, of ONENESS, which has never left.

It has always been there, eternally, and will always be there eternally.

And then the Divine Other, in a moment of great love and tenderness says:  “Only with you.  Only with you.”

And you smile.

Yes, only with you, my Beloved.  For you are home to me, and I am home to you, and we both a Athome with the Divine, where we eternally belong.

The Divine Masculine with the Return of the Divine Feminine

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As the Divine Feminine has truly returned and is being anchored in, the Divine Masculine is feeling this change to the very core of his being.  He must now adjust to a new way of life, living, and expression thereof and therefore often is deeply confused of his own role within the change.

Sometimes he feels threatened to the core, for the structures and forms he had set into motion during the time of Avalon, and truly implemented during the time of Atlantis, is suddenly not working anymore.  In that as much as he tries to regain control, he is losing control faster than he knows what to do with it.

His confusion is mostly within the mind – and then with the heart/mind opening the immense portals of consciousness everywhere, he is in a constant battle between his mind and his heart.

More than this he is confused within the whole structure of love, loving and commitment, and it is almost like he does not quite know what to make of the Divine Feminine, and yet is deeply fascinated by the very depth, the mystery of her.

He has always been fascinated by the very depth of her, the feeling part of her, and her all-knowing which he has to force sometimes, while she just KNOWS.  He cannot fool her, for all her honing systems are already sensing, what he is trying to hide from her.

And hide from her he does.  He loves going into that cave, that ivory tower he has created for himself, when the world gets too much, and he kind of shrinks away from her.  He invented the corporate world for himself, so that he could build the massive ivory towers, the towering penises/phallus (Skyscrapers) everywhere, as this is his power symbol, penetrative, hard  – it is almost like he is ashamed of being bendable, pliable.  No, he thinks he must be that hard, edged, and in control.

When he is in control of himself, his feelings, and his own created world of power, he feels safe.  Yet, there comes the Divine Feminine, and somehow, his ivory towers don’t work anymore, and deep down he so yearns to have that deep depth of knowing, that deep feeling within his own structures, for it gets mighty lonely in that cave, in that bastion, with all its defenses, and structures of what he feels makes him the man he is.

Only thing is, when he sits there cushioned, safe and secure in that ivory tower, the hard penis he has constructed for himself, he suddenly is left alone with himself.  He might control the whole world, all in it, but deep down he feels an immense VOID.  Something is drastically wrong, and missing.

Go back to the creation story, and there Adam has it all. He is in paradise, and has everything God created for him, but he is MISSING SOMETHING!  He has a VOID.

So, he, in this state of deep void, disgruntled, goes to the Divine and asks him to remedy that, to create something or someone who would FILL HIM UP, or the VOID INSIDE of Himself.

So, God created the FEMALE, the Divine Feminine and therefore the first LILITH and then Eve.

Now, Lilith was a free spirit if ever there has been there.  She was vibrantly alive, sensuous, feeling, and had a will of her own.  She loved to explore, to create, to dance wild and free, and she did not like him to be on top of her when they had union, she also wanted to be on top of him sometimes, and play with him in ways where he felt he was losing CONTROL.   He feared losing control more than anything else. Interestingly Lilith was the True Expression of the Divine Feminine, in her exuberant vibrant and totally empowered form – but Adam could not handle her.

His hands and his mind were too small.

So, he again complained bitterly to God, and so he divorced Lilith and then came Eve.  Eve, he could control and Eve was pliable, soft and yielding, compassionate and therefore more to his bidding. But deep down Adam was not happy:  – for he missed Lilith in his own way, and to be quite honest, he kind of found Eve too boring, for she was too pliable, too loving.

This story, like all the stories of creation, has an eternal truth hidden within it.  It seemed that Adam, could not find himself compatible, with any form of the Divine Feminine God created for him.  Somehow, no matter in what form she appeared, something deep inside of him wanted more.  It was exactly this DISCONTENTMENT, WHICH CREATED THE FALL OF MANKIND.

So no matter what God created for Adam, it never seemed good enough.  Adam wanted more.

Let us pause for a minute here, and then look at the traits of the Divine Masculine (and I will list them here)

As YANG:  Heaven, Sun, Fire, Movement, Consciousness (Shiva), Form, warm, active, outward and surface, Expanding, Light and day, Ascending, Fast

As Masculine:  Emptiness, Mental, Mind, No-thing, Purpose, Penetrative, Protective, Order and focus, Direct, Control, Initiates, Integrity, Competitive, Rational, Witness, Simple, Directing, Solitude, Conquering natures, thrives on challenge, Goal orientated, Penis, Hard and angular.

The Divine Masculine when fully empowered, creates STRUCTURES, FORMS, MATHS, SCIENCE, ORDER out chaos, Builds and destroys, likes to neatly label and calculate, formulate everything in his mind and put them in neat little boxes. He wants to protect his own castle and therefore puts all the bastions in place, he wants to build empires, construct, and therefore wants to rule supreme, and control everything.

But look closely now, that when the DIVINE MASCULINE HAS AN OPEN HEART AND THIS WORKS WITH HIS OPEN MIND he will not create anything which is not in highest alignment with the DIVINE WILL AND PURPOSE, and the DIVINE COSMIC LAWS.  He will construct, and build, and therefore structure and form all under the heavens, in a manner which ENHANCES life, and therefore which brings  balance and harmony into being, if he is deeply in touch with his own SOUL and therefore heart.

When the FEMALE, the FEMININE is denied entrance, or not acknowledged deep within himself, he will invariably self-destruct,  be destructive, for he cannot function just from the mind, devoid of the heart.  The VOID WITHIN HIMSELF, the void ADAM felt, was the void of the FEMININE WITHIN, the HEART/SOUL connection.

Interestingly he NEEDS that heart/soul connection, to step into the highest and most empowered version of himself!

When he becomes SOUL EMPOWERED, he can, in merging with his feminine counterpart, allow his own upper transmitters channels to open, and then he can truly step up into the highest version of the Masculine Divine, and into the highest version of co-creatorship.

When his upper transmitter channels, and heart-center are blocked, he will experience immense discomfort in his own sexual area.  It will be like he wants so desperately to tap into the Feminine Power, that immense depth, that mystery, which he so feels as VOID, and then he seeks to abuse his own penis to penetrate as many females as he can, (or abuse them), to feed his own sexual energy centres and ego. There is a deep discomfort, anger, and in some hatred, but interesting this reflects back at the core within himself, he has not owned, nor made peace with.  He becomes addicted to adrenalin rushes, in whatever form this may be, for his very competitiveness, makes dating and womanizing a competitive sport or he adds them as trophies, or as symbols of his own powers.  Yet, in the process, no matter how many females he puts his penis into, he cannot get rid of the VOID WITHIN, and then also deep feeling of self-loathing, self-hate, and self-punishment come to the fore, which often will manifest as prostate cancer.

It is like his penis is controlling him, instead of him controlling his penis.  In that then often putting his penis as a type of GOD, but then dissociating from the same in his mind.  He therefore almost goes out of his body, and looks himself performing an act, and therefore measuring his power through this member, which makes him masculine, but then somehow shuts down his own HEART/SOUL FEELING capacity.  That is why the masculine can do the sexual act, without feeling, for his mind shuts down his feeling centers.

To him it is all about PERFORMANCE.  In that he performs, the female he is with, feels violated, for deep down, she feels that he is not honoring the sacredness of her inner temples, but more than this, he has no respect for the sacredness of his very own!

When the masculine starts opening his heart and soul, a beautiful shift starts to happen, as he is reintroduced to the beautiful sensitivity of his penetrative organ.  When he is present within himself, and is there deeply connected to this heart and soul, he cannot violate her – for he respects himself and her, too much. Indeed his prime bodily member, becomes AN INSTRUMENT OF LOVE – therefore of giving delight, or creating new life, and therefore a wonderful fully loved-tuned instrument to co-created wonders with her!  There then is a deep desire within him, to make her FEEL his great love for her, and how much he wishes to connect to the beautiful depths, the beautiful mystery of all which makes her FEMALE, for she ENHANCES him in so many ways.  It becomes his way of showing her how much he loves her, and how much he wishes to gift her with ALL of what is there deep inside his heart and soul. So often what he cannot express in words, nor put voice to, will speak through the way he makes love to her or does things for her.

She is a mystery to him – yet it is the very mystery of her, which opens up the mystic within himself at the deepest soul level. It is the eternal dance between the Yin and Yang, which created the whole cosmos and all within it, indeed she holds the sacred Grail within the very depths of ALL her Being, if she is true to her own soul, and lives, loves with truth and integrity.

The Divine FEMININE GIFTS him with Fullness, Sensuality, Body, Everything, Being, Receptive, Nurturing, Chaos and Spontaneity, Subtle, Surrender, Sustains, Radiance, Co-operative, Emotional, Expressive, Colorful, Inviting, Social, communicating with nature, thrives on praise, Process orientated, Vagina, Soft and curvy, and the deepest Mystery, the keys and codes of CREATION lie WITHIN her.

It is not that these are not found in the Divine Masculine, for we ALL have the Divine Masculine and the Divine Feminine WITHIN ourselves in some measure, but rather that we finally realize that we NEED BOTH!

Life is not one-sided.

The Scales of Balance have both the Masculine and Feminine – the BALANCE LIES IN THE MIDDLE.  Therefore, when the Male and Female are equally empowered, they enhance each other and therefore bring out the BEST in each other.  Most often when there is imbalance, the worst!

The path to full empowerment lies via the SOUL and the HEART.  When the mind is divorced from the heart and soul, the masculine can get totally out of control and therefore his destructive side emerges, more than the structuring side.

When the masculine finds the depth of his heart and soul, and marries this to his mind, he moves into the Full empowerment of the Masculine Divine.  He will start to first go into his GUT feeling, and then use his mind – so that his upper transmitter channels open.

He will also then get in conversation with his own penis.  That means he will start forgiving himself for the times he just used that sacred temple for his, for self-gratification, and therefore then to conquer and to take.  He will start loving himself so much, that he starts to see this beautiful masculine part of him as the sacred GIFT that the Divine Masculine was given to penetrate, to fit beautifully into the Divine Feminine, and therefore to soulfully enter the most SACRED temple of her whole soul heart and being.  When he is touch with his own sacredness, and therefore with the full intent, to gift her with ALL THAT HE IS, as a man, his heart, soul, mind and BEING, then he is gifting her with more than all the power and money in the world, will ever bring her.

She then will FEEL this, and will open herself in a new and more amazing ways to him, and she will RETURN this gifting with interest and with so much love, that in that very moment two become AS ONE, and therefore the sacred FIRES ignites, where BOTH NOW ARE GIFTED WITH THE MYSTERY OF THE DIVINE GODHEAD ITSELF!

That goes beyond words.  It goes into the deepest mystery of creation itself.  Such experience truly is heaven.  For it become transcendental.

The beautiful blossoming of the Divine Masculine with the Divine Feminine, brings balance and harmony and truly is the return to the fullest Son and Daughter ship of the Divine.  It is the supreme gift of God/Goddess for it reflects their own union within the Godhead.

The empowered Divine Masculine is just as much needed now, as the fully empowered Divine Feminine.

When both are equally empowered, then the full co-creatorship will be returned to humankind and therefore the full powers of the 5th to 7th dimensional state.

A profound healing needs to take place WITHIN both the male and female, in order for this to happen from deep within.

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She loves into the Unknown

 

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She is thrown ever deeper into the unchartered,

The Unknown,

The Deepest deep of Love and Loving.

So many times she tried to run away from feeling so deeply

From having the core of her heart and soul ripped open

And then some more

And then, she sought the high places

The sanctity of silence

Of inner contemplation

As she nursed her wounds…..

She then had no option but to find her wings and fly higher

Higher than ever before

For the call to Highest Service was greater than the sum total of herself….

If she could not understand the depths of her love

Then she would move out and be the love-in-action and Being

For all whom she encountered,

Whether physically, or in other energy spaces of realms…

For first and foremost she was here to serve

Her highest soul purpose and calling

And if her Beloved could not do that with her

Then she had to fly all on her own.

Yet, there were hidden secrets and hidden knowledge waiting for her

In those moments when she allowed herself to just serve

And to seek out the Face of the Divine

In all and everything she encountered

But more than this, in the very depths of her own soul.

So often she stood there before the counsel of 12 and 24

Of the Divine

And she begged them for assistance and clarity

And then they would show her the cosmic picture,

The total perfection of the Divine’s Masterplan

And she would be refreshed and renewed

And then would get on with the business of life

And asking that her heart would not close

But that she would be brought to ever higher levels of love…..

Then, when she least expected

Love found her again….

And she knew the depths of forgiveness,

True forgiveness

And she was reminded of how her soul brother

Said that forgiveness has to be 7 x 7 x 7 and

Then into the even the highest degrees…

Perhaps Love teaches that the heart stays open

Even if forgiveness has to go to the core of the soul

And then dissolve  and put  all back together again…

She stood in places in the last few months,

Where she had to dissolve collective memory banks

After memory banks

Of lifetimes one at a time…

She saw herself in all those Personas

All those roles

And with him…..

And then to move into releasing,

Back into the heart, soul and feeling

And to let go….

Often the tears would flow

For the depths of those moments

Where too much sometimes….

The woundedness….

But then she would find the connection to the Divine

Flowing into her

Filling her

And she could rise all above this

And just find that Love

Which in truth was Her.

She knew that her soul could not stop loving

Nor could her soul ever not be

She knew that to experience life in all its forms

She had to be ALL of it,

The depths of the Despair

And the heights of ecstasy

And the moments of hate and anger

And then find that in essence

They bring one back to balance point

To the moment when crystal clear clarity

Arises that there is just LOVE.

The deeper she delves into the depths of Love

And being Loved

The more she does not understand

But she feels

And she feels that infinity rests

In the deep INNER knowing

That Love has no bottom

And had no lid

It possibilities are infinite

And as the mind is finite

Into cannot stretch into infinity

And it will find a thousand reasons

Not to love,

Not to be stretched

And it conjures up fears

And insecurities

And separation

Yet the heart, the soul

Is there in infinite space

It is already ever present

In the here and now of Eternity,

For it needs not the physical body

To express itself

And therefore love

Loves into infinity

And beyond even that

And beyond all human beings

Have a concept of….

It has no end and no beginning

And it existed of yore beyond yore…

And will exist beyond the beyond, the beyond…

So, here she stands

Delving deeply into the unknown and unchartered….

Can she stop loving?

No, for she is LOVE.

And perhaps,

Through all this endless delving,

The endless exploring

The endless feeling

To the depths of her soul,

She can teach and show others the way,

Even if she cannot see sometimes for seeing,

And only can feel her way through it all…

And she smiles through the tears….

She has found bliss beyond bliss….

She has found ecstasy, euphotia…

Moments when all dissolved into the Divine Fires

And beyond even that….

For the Fires are Sacred

When soul meets soul

With love, in love,

And then, she has experienced

The depth of the pain

Of seeming losing,

Of being ripped apart,

Where pain goes beyond pain

And there is just gaping hole of pain after pain…..

That is love

Ever expanding into even greater levels of love

Ever finding itself

Through it all

And infinite knowing

That Love is the glue

Which eternally binds the whole of Creation together…

Without love

It all falls apart at the seams….

Such is the Power of Love…

To love into the Unknown and Unchartered

It to truly love indeed…

She is Love.

Love.

Love into infinity and beyond even that.

And she thanks her Beloved

For ever bringing her to be stretched

In love

And beyond love

For in the end all is serving her soul

As she is serving his soul

Soul within Soul

The GIFT

Love’s Gift quietly descends

Unfolds in the GIFT…..

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